Is It Any Wonder?

Like acne (and about as attractive), bursting into tears at my desk is one of those things I really wish I’d grow out of.

But I am tired, disgusted, and just generally burned out.

I am tired of the hours, tired of the telephone calls at all hours, tired of the expectation that I will always be checking my Blackberry, and tired of the stupid and generally insulting questions (sometimes to one’s intelligence and usually to one’s ability to do the job one was hired to do) sent by editors in New York. I am tired of being told things by PR people that are total and complete lies, from when the information I have requested might arrive to the actual information itself. I am tired of having to call 47 times (not an exaggeration) for something I have been promised, and being made to feel each time that I am asking for something totally unreasonable.

I am tired of having to be polite to people who say such complete and total BS as that given an ENTIRE MONTH, a person – and not the leader of a country or someone on the first response team of a major disaster, mind you – does not have time to answer one e-mail containing one question, and it isn’t even a question that requires much thought. I am also tired of having to call or email a PR person almost every day of that f**king month to inquire politely about the status of my request, both because I need some idea of whether I need a backup plan (hello, stupid – OF COURSE you need a backup plan; you’re dealing with PR people, and they lie for a living and get paid a whole hell of a lot better than you do for their efforts) and because of editors in NY (see rant in preceding paragraph). I am tired of having to carry on being polite to PR people who clearly do not give me much courtesy, let alone anything approaching the same courtesy. If there is no chance in hell I am going to get what I’m asking for, can you just tell me on the first day and not make me carry out this elaborate charade (and elaborate waste of time) for an entire month or six?

I am really, really, really tired.

I am also on weekend duty.