Friday 27 June 2008

The First Cut is the Deepest, But the Rest Still Hurt Plenty

Yesterday BN2 was on a day-long sales trip in the West Country and sent several sweet texts. He said he’d be home close to midnight, and would ring me then.

About 11:30 p.m., I idly checked his match.com profile, which I do from time to time. He was online. He was still online a half hour later.

I want to be with somebody who wants to call me first -- not after he checks out his options on match.com and gets round to it. (Actually, I don't want to be with anybody who's constantly checking out his other options at all.) Tosser. I sent him a text saying I was falling asleep (not a lie, but frankly annoyed at thought of losing further sleep while he was on the pull online) and that I’d speak with him today.

Sigh. I know. I know.

9 comments:

  1. Beth, you definitely deserve better than this. You are such a funny, smart and most likely gorgeous woman...this guy is way way out of line! But, you know this :). I think being with him will erode your hard won self esteem over time..... you don´t need this.

    Hugs, Renia

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  2. I agree - from the little I know of you from reading your blog - I really like you and think that you deserve better. It doesn't seem like this guy treats you as you deserve ot be treated.

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  3. grrrrrrr

    my blood now boiling.....

    You'll get there and when you do I'm sure he'll miss you a lot.

    Don't let him drive you to eating. I find a spat with the OH can have that effect.

    Lesley x

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  4. I totally get what you're doing and I understand not wanting to hear from other people. But I'm telling you there's a whole world out there for you and you can have expectations like only date me and the right guy will do that. I know you don't want to hear it because trust me I've been there. I gave away 5 years of my life waiting for some guy to fall for me, a guy I was sure was the only guy for me, instead he just left and that time was all gone, my whole early 20s gone. You are an amazing lady and you deserve someone equally amazing to be with who realizes how amazing you are and chooses you above all others. You'll never meet him though while you're wrapped up in this. It's so not healthy for you either. But I get it, I really do.

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  5. I agree with what everyone's said here...he is way out of line, and you do deserve a lot better. You are such a great person,
    K.
    til-i-reach.com

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  6. Yep...I agree with what everybody else is saying. From reading your blog you seem like a real "catch" to me. You are such an intelligent, interesting and fun lady. There would be so many guys who would LOVE to be with you....and only you.

    I totally understand that it would hurt to break away from BN2 but, ultimately, you will open yourself up to meeting somebody fabulous.

    Miss Pinky

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  7. We've been listening to how half-assed this guy is about you for too long. You fully realize this isn't good for you.

    You know, you know...

    Now...

    Take action.
    (fully understanding these things are easier said than done.)

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  8. I miss you...hope you're doing something fabulous...

    Lesley x

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  9. Also was thinking about you and hope you are doing fine.

    Another loyal reader, Renia

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